From Instruments

"This grace justifies, providing complete forgiveness and unwavering acceptance with God. This grace adopts, welcoming us into his family wit all the rights and privileges of true sons and daughters. This grace enables, empowering me to think, say, and do things I could not do in my own strength. This grace transform, radically changing every aspect of my life."
-Paul Tripp

From a Praying Life

"Remember the point of Christianity isn't to learn a lot of truths so you don't need God anymore. We don't learn God in The abstract. We are drawn into his life."
-Paul Miller

Remind me of plodding visionary

What would being the background look like? Is pretending I don't exist. But I think it is more that we live out the script the God has intended for us. What does that even look like? It means that I mean I follow whatever is given to me aka the word!! How can we living by the script with out reading it? That also mean that my script is not other people's lives but reading and living according to the living word!!!

AHH there are soo many subtle things in the song that is just so rich and that address soo much heart motives and God's character. From pride to humility, Being a master self to servant of God, self sufficiency to God's sovereignty, failure and victory. depravity and Gospel, servant-hood and kingship!!

to be honest I am being convicted just listening to this song. Reminded how much my functional life is self propulsion and not relying on Gospel engine for propagation.

Questions that rises that I need to time find out is how would this inform my real like.. what does is look like? What does it mean to be in the background?

Human Height, Human Plight

When I consider all your work, the trim
Consumption fusion makes of hydrogen
In constellations without number, then
Reflect on orbits scattered at your whim,
Each mathematically sure and prim,
Or think of suns and moons not seen by men,
Of space in light-years raised to powers of ten,
Then what is man, that you remember him?
And not just man, but every hair upon
His head, each sitting down, each rising up,
Each turning-point and how it's lost or won,
Each tear, each boisterous laugh, each bitter cup.
That I a dot of cosmic dust, should be
Both known and loved by you transfixes me

- D.A. Carson

Reflection

If you are anything like me. I'll be quick to introspection, and be quick to condemn myself for not being what i just stated before.

it might start something like this... and It had for me.


That is what I want right? Maybe.... ? (post about Plodding Visionary)

I can say that "YES" that is what I want.... in my mind, but somehow functionally my life said something else. My life is fill with compromising moments, where I would read this manga for far too long, or gchating with people for an extra hour too long, eat one too many meals =p haha, or it's ok I'll lose that one hour of sleep doing nothing, or I'll read the Word tomorrow morning,or I'll encourage this person later because its weird,or it's ok i don't have to talk to my dad about God this time, or it's ok if I sin in this area right?

How much of my functional life is a reflection of that statement of my mind.

Some of these moments are dark moments... moments where no one is there. There are no brothers keeping an eye on you, There are no friends watching.No one is going to know that the reason I talk on gchat for so long is that I need attention from people,no knows that I use manga as a distraction from real work, No one is going to know that passed up a chance to talk to my dad, no one knows that i sinned in [blank].... No need to put up a front because there is no one there....... all that is left is between you and God.. questions becomes... what will I do now? Obey God or not.

I think in these moments Plodding Visionaries would choose to obey.

my thoughts of obedience before is like Yea if God calls me to go on missions I'll go, If He want me to open air preach I would do it. Tell me to ask "That Girl" out I'll ask.. you know God told me to do it. God, all you have to do is tell me.

But faithfulness and obedience is where when God ask you to "lay up these words of mine in your heart and in your soul," "Bind [My teachings] on your heart always, "pray without ceasing", "deny [yourself]", "take up [your] cross daily and follow me"

My level of obedience in my solitude reveals my true heart attitude.

Here is where I go... that is not doing this... I can't measure up... I am hypocritical... but that is just more about myself and glorify my guilty conscience.

Yes without God that is my natural state its no surprise... BUT GOD... he didn't leave me like that. because He faithfully send a Savior, Jesus faithfully obeyed the Father, and The Holy Spirit will be faithfully working in and through us.

I'll say this. Being faithful is HARD!!! Look at the Big name in the OT David or Abraham. They are faithful people, but you can find moments of unfaithfulness in their lives. The only one who was and is faithful is Christ himself. And he has paid for all of our sins through the cross. that is why 2 Tim 2 tell us that "if we are faithless, he remains faithful." Know that the only reason we can be faithful because He is faithful in persevering us to do so. But this should never excuse us from fighting sin and actively obey God. But is the other side of the guardrails to prevent us from condemnation.